Wednesday, November 28, 2007

:::...Being Unhappy...:::


After being on earth for so long, the journey started....am now somehow away from the over inhabited land...far and far away......joy ....fear....confusions....ecstasy...instability....need and repulsion.....INCOMPREHENSIBLE!!!!!! Wish I left out all the restraints on earth and enjoyed the looseness.....

Words are suffocating inside me.....unable to find an exit to express......am I that lost and confused?? A constant struggle inside me trying to understand the thin line between fake and real!!!
I still can feel the cold palm within mine.......that never want to leave you grip.....and her last words.....which couldn't find an exit either........for years I would keep wondering though .....what was that she wanted to say! I couldn't cry..........not a drop.........funny I have cried enough in past for every small loss!!!!!! Couldn't trust this could happen to me.........took me days to even accept the fact that she is not around........she told me "the world is not so black and white as you think it is.....you need to paint it as and when required to keep it flowing" ..........and I always failed miserably...........on canvas i will perfectly blend the colours in minutes...........but alas!!!!
There are so many reasons to cry.........and I end up crying for the wrong reason.....so many dreams to chase and I always chase the unsought one .....so much to achieve but I always look for the unworthy......so many stars over there but I want to see what is there in the dark!!!! So many paths open and still I fail to find my ways...so much happiness around and I end up being unhappy!!!!!

1 comment:

  1. Oh my God...
    It's so touching... and m literally feeling like Crying...
    I dnt knw the reason.. why I am feeling like so :-(

    Varsha

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