Wednesday, November 28, 2007

:::...Again N For Good...:::


I will release the chocked words today....
It took me good some days before I could gather the words that I wanted to write you...and in my mind I have thought a thousand thoughts which probably I would not be able to convey ever to you.....but till I can say it am not free....I have to put my love in grave and move forward....have to bid you the last goodbye..... I told you there can be a moment in life when I start getting this feeling and I leave at the point when you least expect me to do it...........reached that point ........I have always accused you of many things, have said things I never meant, have said things I meant......I fought...i screamed...i cried...i loved ....but all for the reason , I wanted to be with you...as much as anyone could ever wish ,loved you with all the passion I could gather...with all my being.........but then love wasn't enough I can see....
Had the most amazing time of my life with you baby........and you were the best support one could ever think of at the moment of crisis....would never be able to forget you either for different reasons, but mainly cause you filled me up at the time when i was so empty..............I don't know how I will ever get over you but then I have to ...I know that.... I have no idea how life would be without you...and it aches my heart to even think that we couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel together :)I wouldn't give you the reason what made me feel so bad.......I will carry the blame with me while parting from you.....It was a wonderful journey though........and will leave all my good wishes for you.......
Notes to myself : I Called it Off “again and for good”And when she asked me about love, I said “I suck”, could have blamed her or love itself for it, but thought it is iniquitous.Or may be all our life this will remain unresolved who left whom...May be you cannot see me but I'm always here.. come on..you can feel me... Expand your hands and reach out for me…you are not able to touch me!! you can touch my heart...feel the beats... a touch not soon forgotten. I am here…ready to suffer…willing to absorb the hurts from those who seem to care.You might feel am blabbering...am probably just talking to myself...trying to convince myself only......tearing and stitching my mind and heart time and again......

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