Faking a laugh, faking a smile,
Hiding the truth behind a mask, while
my heart is breaking into pieces
with every smile that i give
That's the life that i live
Used to believe in fairy tales, thinking it's a beautiful world
Then i was appalled with the truth that this world holds
I tried to fool myself and hide behind my dreams
Tried to make everything as simple as it seems
But deep inside, there were thousands of bursting tears,
with every smile that i used to give
that's the life that i live
Ended up with a broken heart,
ended up with my life ripped apart.
Ended up left alone in the darkness, crying,
Gave up and just quit trying...
Monday, October 29, 2007
:::...Hidden Truth...:::
Sunday, October 28, 2007
::::....Walking Alone....:::::
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
Sunday, October 21, 2007
:::... Missing Dreamz...::::
While musing over my dreams, I suddenly realized they are not even my dreams anymore!!!! The pain that’s slowly killing me but still am living with it, this heart still beating shamelessly…..am I not surprised that am still breathing!! I have fallen into this vicious circle of living and life just goes on…on and on….meaningless…direction less.
But what wouldn’t I give for just another perfect day with you? A carefree day when you used to be you and I used to be me…..till we both lost ourselves………oh who knew love hurts this way!!!! Your never ending attempts of keeping me happy and my never ending attempts of seeing a smile on your face…….how desperate we are to sprinkle some happiness in each other’s life…
Have you ever felt you are a princess and your wishes are granted even before they are uttered? Has someone ever cried just because you are crying? Has someone ever cared so much for you that he has stood against all the odds? Did you ever feel someone is reading your silence? Has anyone ever uttered “I love you” to you through his eyes? I AM BLESSED!!!! Yes I am….I know that….
No regrets…no remorse…..I don’t care what is right and what is wrong….if love is a war let it begin!!! Only time will tell if we are meant for each other….my tears and my joys are my own…my very own…
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Life became you and you have turned into a broken glass. The more I try to gather you, the more I cut my

Monday, October 8, 2007
:::...M DREAMING AGAIN...:::


If I were a beginning, I would be: THE BEGINNING OF HER YOUTH .
If I were a month, I would be: JULY .
If I were a day of the week, I would be: FRIDAY .
If I were a time of day, I would be: MORNING .
If I were a planet, I would be: EARTH .
If I were a season, I would be: MONSOON .
If I were a sea animal, I would be: A DOLPHIN .
If I were a direction, I would be: A DIRECTION TOWARDS HER HOME .
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: A BOOK SHELF.
If I were a sin, I would be: PRIDE .
If I were a liquid, I would be: WATER .
If I were a fraud/scare, I would be: A HEART BREAK .
If I were a gem, I would be: A BLUE SAPPHIRE .
If I were a tree, I would be: A MAPLE .
If I were a tool, I would be a: A PEN .
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: A LILY .
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: A RAINY DAY.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: A GUITAR .
If I were an animal, I would be: A CAT .
If I were an emotion, I would be: PASSION .
If I were a vegetable, I would be: POTATO .
If I were a sound, I would be: THE SOUND OF MUSIC .
If I were an element, I would be: WATER .
If I were a car, I would be: A SAFARI .
If I were a song, I would be: RONAN KEATING SONG .
If I were a food, I would be: ICING ON CAKE .
If I were a place, I would be: GOA .
If I were a taste, I would be: BITTER SWEET .
If I were a scent, I would be: FINDI .
If I were a religion, I would be: SPIRITUAL BUT NOT RELIGIOUS .
If I were a sentence, I would be: I LOVE YOU .
If I were a body part, I would be: THE EYE .
If I were a facial expression, I would be: CONTENT .
If I were a subject in college, I would be: ENGLISH .
If I were a shape, I would be: ROUND .
If I were a quantity, I would be: ONE THAT CAN’T BE MEASURED .
If I were a color, I would be: PINK .
If I were a thing, I would be: A BOOK .
If I were a landmass, I would be: AN ISLAND .
If I were a book, I would be: THE BOOK OF ILLUSIONS .
If I were a monument, I would be: THE TAJ .
If I were an artist, I would be: SALVADOR DALI .
If I were a poem, I would be: A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM .
If I were a landscape, I would be: THE SEA .
I was a watch, I would be: TIMELESS .
If I were God, I would be: BLIND .
If I were a vowel, I would be: I .
If I were a consonant, I would be: R .
If I were a formula, I would be: THE DIFFICULT MOST .
If I were a Science, I would be: CHEMISTRY .
If I were a theory, I would be: THEORY OF GRAVITATION .
If I were a famous person, I would be: SHAHRUKH KHAN .
If I were sport, I would be: ICE SKATING .
If I were a movie, I would be: SOCHA NA THA .
If I were a cartoon, I would be: JERRY .
If I were an explorer, I would be: LOST IN THE JUNGLES .
If I were a scientist, I would be: LEONADO THE VINCI .
If I were a relation, I would be: A LOVER .
If I were a river, I would be: AN UNKNOWN ONE .
If I were intoxication, I would be: LOVE .
If I were alone, I would be: DREAMING .
If I were a question, then I would be: WHY .
If I were a hobby, I would be: TV .
If I were a habit, I would be: GETTING LOST IN THE MOMENTS .
If I were in an atom, I would be: PROTONS .
If I were an end, I would be: BEGINNING AGAIN .
If I were you, I would be: MISSING MYSELF.